Weght May 2, 2008

I am really needing a place to keep up with my weight loss. I like seeing the numbers go down on a weekly basis. I have a terrible memory, so I’m tired of trying to rely on that!

My weight this morning was 194.8. I know that is still a huge number. But I’m so excited. I can’t tell you how good it feels to get on the scales before I go to bed and see a number in the 100’s.  At the beginning of this journey, I couldn’t enjoy each pound lost.  I kept waiting to be happy until I lost more.  Now, I’m thankful for every pound.  I know I won’t go back over 200.  I just can’t do that again.  It’s so mentally  freeing  to be under 200.  I know there isn’t a big difference in 202 and 198 in my appearance, but in my state of mind it’s colossal!

At the beginning of May last year, I was 258.6.  I’ve lost 64LBS in a year!  I feel so much better, physically and emotionally.  Yes, I still put the fun in disfunctional, but I’m happier and less moody than I was.  I’m able to move so much easier now.

This whole journey has been a series of milestones.  Most of them have been set by the number on the scale.  I know I should be more concerned with my health in general, but at that starting weight, numbers on the scale are what you notice the most.  When I hit my 50lbs down goal, I decided it was time to do something for me.  That is when I got my iPod.  When I hit 60lbs down, I didn’t really get a material prize for myself.  The mental prize was better than anything material!  Now, I’m hitting a new milestone.  Clothes.  I went shopping and bought pants and shorts in the regular size section, not the plus size section.  Oh my goodness, I didn’t know if I’d be able to contain myself.  To be walking around in regular size clothing, it’s almost like it’s not real.  It’s hard to explain.  In February of 1995, I had lost 50lbs and hit 202.  That was the last time I had gotten that low, until now.  I honestly can’t remember when I was under 200, but I know it wasn’t long after Hubs and I got together that I went over 200.  We’ve been together for 20 years.

I Knew I Could February 24, 2008

I knew I could do it!  I finally hit 50 lbs!  When I went last Tuesday for my Dr. appt, I had officially hit 52 lbs DOWN! 

DH and I went shopping to celebrate the hitting milestone!  I’m now the proud owner of an iPod Touch!  I did tell him that I’d gladly take 50 squares of St. Augustine sod instead!  He didn’t like that idea, if I got sod, then he’d have to actually do something physical in the yard!  He hasn’t done anything physical in our yard in almost 4 years.(he cut a limb from a tree in the back yard to get more sunshine in his pool!) 

I think he figured if he bought the iPod it would be easier for him!  For the most part it is easier, but I found it $40 cheaper up the road from where I bought it.  So, tomorrow, we’ll either get $40 from the original store or return the Touch and go to the other store and buy their’s!!

Have a great week!

SSOOOO SSLLOOOOOWWW February 10, 2008

This weight surely isn’t coming off as fast as it came on!

9 Days ago I had ONE pound to go to hit a loss of 50.  Today, I’ve got .5 left!  I’ve gained and lost the same 2 lbs so many times, I should be at my goal by now!

I have my dr. appt on Tuesday, hopefully I’ll be at my 50lb goal by then.  Tomorrow at the gym, I’m only doing cardio.  DH is going and he always makes me lift weights, (which makes me wonder why I’m having trouble losing, but that’s another post)

I weighed! January 25, 2008

I’m now down 47lbs!

I can see 50!  It’s just on the other side of the treadmill!

As soon as I see 50lbs down, I’ll only have 28lbs left to lose to hit my goal!  I’ve set a goal knowing that I’d re-evaluate once I hit it.  It’s been so long since I’ve been that low, heck-who am I kidding—-It’s been so long since I’ve been this low!  I think the last time I was this low was after I had #1—-12 years ago!  And even then, if I did see this weight, it wasn’t long.  At my 6 week check-up, I was put on that birth control shot and put 50lbs on in 6 months!  How’s that for over achieving?!

I’d like to have the 78lbs gone by May.  That was when I started my journey….this time around

I’m working out pretty regularly.  I’m at the gym on average 4 times a week, and I’m spending about an hour and a half while I’m there.  While I’m there, I’m taking 20 minutes for myself and sitting in the sauna with a magazine!  I’m also riding the recumbent bike and loving it!

A Day Late, A Pound Down September 7, 2007

Yep, I’m down 41 lbs now.  I actually lost this pound at the begining of the week, and just haven’t lost anymore since.  Yes, I would have liked to have lost more last week, but one pound is super-dee-duper!  Especially considering that I didn’t exercise as I should have and I have just finished my bloating week!  Hopefully I’ll loose 3 next week, to keep my 2lb a week average.

I did get 30 min in this morning.  Hubs works all weekend, so since I’ll be up at 5:30AM tomorrow and Sunday, I’ll get an hour each day!

FORTY POUNDS September 1, 2007

Doesn’t that sound great? I’m just about halfway! I want to lose another 41 pounds.

40 pounds, Forty Pounds, F.O.R.T.Y.P.O.U.N.D.S.

Thank you, Jesus!

Today’s The Day To Weigh August 30, 2007

Are you sitting?

39 pounds down!

I was hoping to lose 15 this month, but I’ll take my 11lb loss this month without any complaining!

I go to the dr tomorrow.  I always sabotage myself the day before I have to weigh at the dr’s office.  I think part of it does have to do with the fact that my monthly appts fall at the same time as PMS!  Granted PMS isn’t as bad as it used to be now that I’m taking progesterone.  BUT, I used the last of my cream on Mon, and didn’t go into town yesterday to pick up my script.  So, I’ve gone 2 days with out it.  I could really tell yesterday.  I wanted chips so bad!  I finally broke down and decided to go ahead and allow myself a handful.  When I finally found the bag, it was at Hubs desk.  That meant that he was playing his game while he was eating the chips.  He didn’t have bowl on the desk, that meant that he was sticking his hand in the bag.  I know how bad his keyboard needs to be cleaned.  His keyboard would make the How Clean Is Your House ladies gag!  Needless to say, I chose not to have any chips!

I’ve walked 3 days this week.  I haven’t walked to day, yet.  I am planning on walking at work today.  I’ll have to bring #’s1&3 with me, but I’m also bringing a movie.  It’s so hot at work.  When I’m there I’m so sweaty, I might as well hop on the treadmill after all of the moms leave!  I like their treadmills better!

Just the fact that I’m wanting to hit the 40lb mark by tomorrow’s dr appt will make sure I spend an hour on the treadmill!

It’s Thursday! August 23, 2007

35 POUNDS DOWN

I was so thrilled to see that number on the scale! I don’t really expet it to stay gone. I was very upset yesterday and only had 2 handfulls of pistachios around 10 yesterday morning, I did have water and Diet Dr. Pepper. So I know as soon as I eat something, I’ll put some of that back on.

I’ve walked 3 days in a row. I haven’t walked yet today. I’ve got to work, but I’ll try to get on the treadmill some time today. We bought that movie Hog Wild, I like to walk while I watch a movie, there aren’t any commercials to bore me, so I don’t stop early!

I got a message from my boss yesterday. It seems that I’m out of a job on the 15th. She and her DH have decided to close up shop! She asked if I knew of anyone who would like to lease it from them. I’ve thought about calling my old trainer and talking to him about it. I know I only work 6 hrs a week, but it’s the membership that I’m still wanting to use!

I’ll ask Hubs today if I can at least order the at home version of the conference. I think I really need it now. Let’s just say that I’m not very happy! I’m feeling very used, taken for granted, completely not appreciated and not even wanted. I feel like he is just letting me live here so he’ll have a live in nanny and maid. Oh, and one who doesn’t get vacations.

It’s Finally Gone August 19, 2007

Well those 2lbs are finally gone! So I am back to my 32lb loss! I haven’t walked since Thursday, but I deep cleaned the house on Friday eve and Saturday morning, so I still spent some time sweating!

Did I tell you about the shirt I got? I got it free at the begining of the month with a pre-buy of Casting Crowns new CD The Altar And The Door. Anyway, since it was free, they were all a size Large! Yippee! But with a little pulling here and there I got the shirt a little bigger, but it was still too small. WELL, I put it on this morning and IT FIT!!! It’s tighter than how I normally where my tops, but it’s not HOOCHIE TIGHT!

I’m ECSTATIC! Especially since we had lunch today with Hubs mom/stepdad for #1’s b’day lunch. Well, she didn’t say a thing about my weight loss. At first I was a bit upset because of her silence. Is my loss not noticeable to others? Is this all in my head? Then I had a bit of a talk with myself………….Of course it shows, I’m wearing pants now that I couldn’t even pull up over my @$$ a few months ago, I’m moving so much easier, my face is so much thinner, etc…….THEN I realized why she didn’t say anything……….it was because she didn’t have anything nasty to say to me! If history has proven anything it’s that when she talks to me its to JAB me! SO, her silence SCREAMED to me that YES, as a matter of fact, I am looking good!

So my prize for hitting the 30lb mark was a pedicure today! I’ve got neon pink!! I didn’t splurge and get flowers, I think the pink is flashy enough!

I also got a new computer! I finally got a notebook! After we bought it and were on our way home, Hubs told me that he hoped I realized that the ‘puter was my conference trip. I looked at him and told him NO. I told him that he was NOT going to do that to me! This morning we talked again about me registering. He told me we would talk about it later. I’ve got to register soon! I’ll try to register tomorrow. I don’t want to wait until the last minute!

weighin August 16, 2007

ok…still the same! I was sure I lost this week, but still the same! I have been loosing some inches though, as some clothes are fitting and others fitting differently!