Weght May 2, 2008

I am really needing a place to keep up with my weight loss. I like seeing the numbers go down on a weekly basis. I have a terrible memory, so I’m tired of trying to rely on that!

My weight this morning was 194.8. I know that is still a huge number. But I’m so excited. I can’t tell you how good it feels to get on the scales before I go to bed and see a number in the 100’s.  At the beginning of this journey, I couldn’t enjoy each pound lost.  I kept waiting to be happy until I lost more.  Now, I’m thankful for every pound.  I know I won’t go back over 200.  I just can’t do that again.  It’s so mentally  freeing  to be under 200.  I know there isn’t a big difference in 202 and 198 in my appearance, but in my state of mind it’s colossal!

At the beginning of May last year, I was 258.6.  I’ve lost 64LBS in a year!  I feel so much better, physically and emotionally.  Yes, I still put the fun in disfunctional, but I’m happier and less moody than I was.  I’m able to move so much easier now.

This whole journey has been a series of milestones.  Most of them have been set by the number on the scale.  I know I should be more concerned with my health in general, but at that starting weight, numbers on the scale are what you notice the most.  When I hit my 50lbs down goal, I decided it was time to do something for me.  That is when I got my iPod.  When I hit 60lbs down, I didn’t really get a material prize for myself.  The mental prize was better than anything material!  Now, I’m hitting a new milestone.  Clothes.  I went shopping and bought pants and shorts in the regular size section, not the plus size section.  Oh my goodness, I didn’t know if I’d be able to contain myself.  To be walking around in regular size clothing, it’s almost like it’s not real.  It’s hard to explain.  In February of 1995, I had lost 50lbs and hit 202.  That was the last time I had gotten that low, until now.  I honestly can’t remember when I was under 200, but I know it wasn’t long after Hubs and I got together that I went over 200.  We’ve been together for 20 years.

I weighed! January 25, 2008

I’m now down 47lbs!

I can see 50!  It’s just on the other side of the treadmill!

As soon as I see 50lbs down, I’ll only have 28lbs left to lose to hit my goal!  I’ve set a goal knowing that I’d re-evaluate once I hit it.  It’s been so long since I’ve been that low, heck-who am I kidding—-It’s been so long since I’ve been this low!  I think the last time I was this low was after I had #1—-12 years ago!  And even then, if I did see this weight, it wasn’t long.  At my 6 week check-up, I was put on that birth control shot and put 50lbs on in 6 months!  How’s that for over achieving?!

I’d like to have the 78lbs gone by May.  That was when I started my journey….this time around

I’m working out pretty regularly.  I’m at the gym on average 4 times a week, and I’m spending about an hour and a half while I’m there.  While I’m there, I’m taking 20 minutes for myself and sitting in the sauna with a magazine!  I’m also riding the recumbent bike and loving it!

Blood Sugar September 8, 2007

My blood sugar has been right where is should be for a while now. I hadn’t taken my byetta since the 24th of August and then I took it again the night before Labor Day. Labor Day I felt very weird. That was how I felt when I had first started taking the shot 4 months ago. I don’t like the way it made me feel. When I started taking it, I felt like that for about a week before my body adjusted to it. I don’t want to go through another week of that. It makes me feel lethargic and cloudy and I don’t exercise at all! I haven’t taken it since last Sunday night. I felt fine, but I was out of test strips so I didn’t know what my sugar really was. I refilled my strips yesterday and before dinner last night, my sugar was 110! I am very pleased.

My dr. said that she thought one of the reason I couldn’t lose weight back then was because my sugar was getting too high. Personally, I don’t think so. I was checking it about once a week back then and it was staying around 100. I do think that my sugar was one of the reasons that I gained the weight back so fast! I also think that keeping my sugar where it should be will help me not gain my weight back.

I am so scared that I will gain it all back! I talked with her about that at my last appt. I am learning what and how much to eat now. I know that when we order pizza, that I am only eating one slice. I know that is all I should eat! I know that I need to walk a minimum of 30 minutes a day, with a minimum of 3 days a week! She told me that my appts with her will still be monthly for a while after I get off the meds. She said if I start to gain weight back that there are plenty of options available. That is very comforting to me! I know that my weight will always be something I will have to work at. Anything worthwhile is, right?

Weight August 20, 2007

I’ve lost 6lbs since August 1.  I’m hoping to lose at least 15 by August 31.  If I can lose 15 this month, then 15 next month, then I’l have lost another 30lbs by the time the conference rolls around!  That will be 62lbs!  Then I’ll only need to lose another 13lbs to get to my goal!  Granted, when I get closer, I may raise or lower my goal.  Not sure yet, we’ll see.  It’s been so long since I’ve been at a healthy weight, I really don’t even know what that weight should be!

BUT, I think the conference is the perfect prize for the next 30lb loss!

I figure if I keep walking regularly, I should be able to hit my goal of losing 15lbs this month!

My arms are really getting flabby.  I need to start some toning exercises!

old habits July 14, 2007

Old habits are hard to break.  Sometimes you break them with out really knowing it and sometimes you know you are breaking them and just really don’t care and keep breaking them.

I flat out knew and planned on breaking a bad habit the other day.

I have told you the mess with the public school.  Well, there are 2 other mothers who are very upset and we decided to make fliers to post around town to let everyone know that there was a school board meeting and that everyone should go to it.  This involved me spending $20.  I got the money from the other ladies and went to town to make fliers(1250 to be exact).  After I had spent the money, I got home and found out that the people having this public meeting were going to try to close it to the public.  I found this out as Hubs was finding out that I spent $20 on this.  Needless to say he wasn’t/isn’t very happy with me.  He is now going on and on about how apparently our priorities are not the same.  How could I spend $20 on ‘that man’ when #2 needs new shoes.  He is going on and on about how ‘that man’ is more important to me than my own family.  I honestly don’t see it that way.  We just bought #2 a pair of Skechers.  I am planning on getting him another pair to start school with but for now, these are really all he needs.  And YES, I think $20 to get the townsfolk involved in this lynching is a pretty good investment for MY FAMILY.  There are quite a few people that say we just need to look the other way……the owner of the paper wouldn’t even write the story, but did write an editorial and basically said….there but by the grace of God go I…Everyone should just mind their own business…So, yes, I think it was a pretty good decision and yes, I do think it will work.  Everywhere we’ve gone to put these up, the people have been HAPPY to post them!

So, he’s pissy and acting like he’s so much better than me because he could care less about ‘this man’ and he isn’t obsessed with him like he says I am.  He thinks I am going to ruin #2’s chances at a decent life because of the retaliation that ‘this man’ will inflict on #2.  He keeps pointing out that we are HS #1 because of ‘this man’ and haven’t I screwed up enough of our children’s lives already!?

Oh, Yes, Back to my bad habits……..So, the night this happened, I didn’t even eat dinner.  I was very upset, and we weren’t really talking to each other.  Well, Hubs came into the living room and announced that he wanted me to take him to Sonic for dessert, ‘cuz the dinner that I had prepared didn’t really do the trick and he wanted something else.  So, we get to Sonic and I had already decided that I was getting a Large Butterfinger Blast with EXTRA Butterfinger and no whip cream.  I knew it wasn’t a smart thing to do, I knew I didn’t want those extra pounds just because I was mad at THE SYSTEM, but I didn’t care.  I wanted that comfort.  So I gave in and did it.  We got home and I ate all of the butterfinger that was on top and ya know what?  That was enough, I didn’t eat any more!  Hubs came in and got my cup and ate the rest of it!

So even though my spirit was willing, the flesh wasn’t weak!!

Weigh In :) July 12, 2007

Ok, I’m up a half of a pound from yesterday, but yesterday I was down 1.5 lbs from the day before!  Go Figure!  That is why it is best for me to have that one day a week that I reference to!

So, last week, I didn’t lose or gain.  Not losing is OK, but not gaining was great!  Maybe Mother Nature and I are coming to an agreement?!?!

This week, I’ve lost 2 lbs since 2 weeks ago, so averaging  1lb a week isn’t too bad?

That puts me at 23 POUNDS DOWN!

I am now back to the weight I was when we quit the bad gym.  This is the weight that I  was stuck at for 8 months.  I’ve got a good feeling that I won’t be stuck at this weight like I was before!

How’s your week going?

Weigh In July 11, 2007

Well, I haven’t lost any weight since last Thursday.  I’m OK with that, I guess.  We just spent some time at the river and I didn’t walk, I didn’t drink water like I normally do, and I ate some things that I normally wouldn’t have eaten.  BUT, I did get to sit on a deck and enjoy the great outdoors while I planned school for next year.  which is now completely planned…thankyouverymuch!

I’ll have to let you know what I’ve decided.  I’m so glad to have that cloud gone from my thoughts!  Now, all we have to do is figure out how to pay for it, hehehe.  But, I figure since I know what I’m going to do, I can now focus my attention on finding the best prices on the books I want.  I’ll hit that used book store a few towns over first!

Went to the dr. today, I got the results of my bloodwork.  This is blood work that was taken 2 months after the last blood work.  My cholesterol is in great range, my sugars are going back down to where they should be, still higher than they should be, but not too far, all of my levels were back to where they should be, maybe some could still use a bit of work.  BUT, my dr. said that those #’s will all do so much better as the weight comes off.  She said that I probably won’t be taking thyroid meds in about a month or two and my sugar meds that I’m taking 2X a day will probably be dropped to 1X a day in a month or two also.  AND, I won’t have to do blood work for 3 months this time, because I’m loosing weight at the rate she wants, not too fast and not too slow!

ZIPPED ~ UPDATED July 1, 2007

Ok, so I just had to update this little post.  I’m able to get those shorts on and breathe at the same time.  I almost wore them out the other day, but there’s still a bit of lagniappe hanging over the top of the waist line.  So I’m hopeful that I’ll be wearing these shorts this summer.  I was really wanting to wear them last week, but I probably wouldn’t have even if they fit.  They are a bit short for wear I was!

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originally posted June 5, 2007

Not sure if I’ve admitted this to you, BUT, I haven’t been able to fit into my shorts that I wore last summer   They haven’t fit for quite a while, but it was winter and I always thought I’d get back into them.  I couldn’t even get the button to think about meeting!

WELL, I got them on and zipped yesterday!!!  NO, I still can’t wear them.  I almost lost conscientiousness(sp?) yesterday before I got them off!  BUT THEY ZIPPED!

Maybe in 2 weeks I’ll be able to wear them out!!

I’ve about lost all hope in my scale.  I got on this morning and weighed, got off, stepped back on and gained 1.8#, stepped off got back on and gained 2#, stepped off got back on and lost 3#!!

Hubs says we’ll see about getting a good scale Friday when he gets paid.  Got any advice/thoughts on scales?

SOY June 6, 2007

I’ve read that soy can help with PMS. I can’t find the little book that I had, but there was an article I read about dairy products to avoid and that soys should be increased 2 weeks before your cycle. Now that I’m taking progesterone, the symptoms are gone, but I am curious if my body could use the soy anyway!

Now that Hubs and I are back on the wagon, we have stocked up on protein powder. He likes his with 2 scoops(50 g protein), milk, 1 banana and ice. I’ve started mixing mine with Chocolate Soy LIGHT and I’m only using 1 scoop (25g) and the past 2 mornings I had 4 strawberries with that!

I think that’s a great breakfast! I really like the light version of the choc soy. #2 loves choc soy milk. I get it for him and have always liked it but always thought it was too thick. This light version is just the right consistency!

Movies June 3, 2007

As you know, I love movies.  The problem is, I like to eat heavily buttered popcorn while I’m watching movies.  AND one bag isn’t usually enough.  So, I haven’t allowed myself to buy any popcorn in about 2 months.

I watched Mission Impossible 3(more about my feelings of this movie in another post) this afternoon and was doing very well.  I got my cell phone out and checked my email and then I played a few games of Pop-It, and then I got the lotion out and rubbed lotion on my feet and legs to keep my hands busy a little while longer.  I also had a huge bottle of water.  This was a great ploy to keep food out of my mouth and worked very well, for this movie.

Then I got busy around the house, tidying up and sorting laundry.  Then I saw that Mission Impossible 2 was coming on.  So I sat down with my water to watch it.  I wasn’t so clever with my hands during this movie and ate a whole bag of Kettle lightly salted chips.  Luckily I only bought the 5 oz size!  I keep telling myself that this was just a minor set back and that I shouldn’t blow a whole day on one failure!

BUT, I also haven’t walked today.  I’ve been moving with mopping and sweeping and laundry, but I haven’t spent 30 minutes on the treadmill.  I can’t give myself an excuse, not even for one day.  I know me, if I give myself an inch, I’ll take a mile!

Hubs is off tomorrow, and I’ve already got gym time scheduled for when I get off work!!!  I’ll just have #1 with me and he like to get in the ab lounge while I work out!

I do have dinner planned, so we won’t be at the mercy of the 2 fast food joints in town!  We’re having something very simple, grilled chicken, green beans and zucchini!