I am really needing a place to keep up with my weight loss. I like seeing the numbers go down on a weekly basis. I have a terrible memory, so I’m tired of trying to rely on that!
My weight this morning was 194.8. I know that is still a huge number. But I’m so excited. I can’t tell you how good it feels to get on the scales before I go to bed and see a number in the 100’s. At the beginning of this journey, I couldn’t enjoy each pound lost. I kept waiting to be happy until I lost more. Now, I’m thankful for every pound. I know I won’t go back over 200. I just can’t do that again. It’s so mentally freeing to be under 200. I know there isn’t a big difference in 202 and 198 in my appearance, but in my state of mind it’s colossal!
At the beginning of May last year, I was 258.6. I’ve lost 64LBS in a year! I feel so much better, physically and emotionally. Yes, I still put the fun in disfunctional, but I’m happier and less moody than I was. I’m able to move so much easier now.
This whole journey has been a series of milestones. Most of them have been set by the number on the scale. I know I should be more concerned with my health in general, but at that starting weight, numbers on the scale are what you notice the most. When I hit my 50lbs down goal, I decided it was time to do something for me. That is when I got my iPod. When I hit 60lbs down, I didn’t really get a material prize for myself. The mental prize was better than anything material! Now, I’m hitting a new milestone. Clothes. I went shopping and bought pants and shorts in the regular size section, not the plus size section. Oh my goodness, I didn’t know if I’d be able to contain myself. To be walking around in regular size clothing, it’s almost like it’s not real. It’s hard to explain. In February of 1995, I had lost 50lbs and hit 202. That was the last time I had gotten that low, until now. I honestly can’t remember when I was under 200, but I know it wasn’t long after Hubs and I got together that I went over 200. We’ve been together for 20 years.
