OUCH April 29, 2007

My back is hurting so bad!  When I went to the doctor, I told her that it was hurting and she thought it was probably the weight, and I agreed.  My back was hurting low and mainly hurting at night.  NOW, it’s hurting all the time.  I can’t breathe sometimes it hurts so bad.  I can’t take a deep breath at all.  Then there are certain moves that literally leave me breathless!  It’s gotten worse since Friday.  I called the dr. and my call hasn’t been returned.  I guess I’ll make an appt for my back and maybe there will be lab results then!  I don’t want to take more ibuprofen, I took so much when I had bronchitis.  Which is another problem I’m having, I’m wheezing some.  Like I did when I had bronchitis, but not as often.

Ok, that’s my poor pitiful whinny me story!

OH, we did go to the zoo today!  That was fun!  The boys had a great time.  It was a spur of the moment thing and we didn’t have the camera.  I took some pics with my phone, but that was it! 

weigh ins April 26, 2007

Ok…If we hold out until my back feels better to weigh in, we may never do it!  I still haven’t excercised, so this is week 4 of no excercise and I am down 1 lb from the beginning.  So I am 7 up from my goal.  I have been trying to be food concious since I can’t excercise and it is nice to see some pay off.  Last week I was 13 lbs above my goal weight. 

Nervous April 23, 2007

I’m so nervous.  I had blood taken on Thursday, and the results should be in today or tomorrow.  Since no one has called me so far today, I’m guessing it will be tomorrow before I hear anything.  I don’t do well when I’m waiting for news.  I can’t seem to stop eating.  Luckily we are out of popcorn!!  Luckily we don’t have any junk here, so I’m eating oranges, and mixed nuts….stuff like that!  But I really want some popcorn and a movie!  Maybe that popcorn that I like so much is one of the reasons I’m concerned about my cholesterol     I’m also nervous to hear about the condition of my heart.  She’s running some kind of test that can tell if I have heart disease and how far along if I do.  6 months ago, I wouldn’t have been so nervous.  6 months ago, I was doing a better job of taking care of myself!  6 months ago, I could leave the kids with a sitter and exercise.  I know, that’s just an excuse!

Hubs has to go to Mexico for 4 days sometime after we get back from vacation.  He’s not happy, and I’m just hoping that I don’t have to be the one to take/pick up from the airport!  He’s got to go to learn how to work on some machine.  The guys in Mexico can’t come here, because the big wigs are worried that they’ll see that every guy at Hubs’ plant has a car, might see how well they live and then the Mexico guys won’t want to go back!  The guys in Mexico make $30 a day, doing the same thing someone here does making $13 an hour!  AND the guys here don’t all work 12 hr days 7 days a week!!

I told Hubs that I wanted him to be careful down at the MX plant since they don’t have OSHA down there.  He informed me that they were pretty much the same machine, but down there, there isn’t government funded anything and the workers know that they’d better be careful, cuz if they get hurt, they don’t make any money.  Hubs said here, it’s no big deal if you get hurt, the government will take care of you!!

Nope, the dr. still hasn’t called.  Can you tell I’m nervous?  I’m rambling!!  I’ll quit typing now!!

Bitter Sweet April 19, 2007

Hubs is working tonight.  This is his day off.  He went into work around 3 and will be getting out around 8:30.  Hubs is supposed to be relaxing and enjoying today, because the next 3 days are his 3  – 12hr in a row days.  And he was called in last Sunday, he worked about 7hrs  then.  So far this week, he’s worked about 12hrs overtime and this is his week to work 5 12 hr shifts.  Next week is his week to only work 2 12hrs shifts, but it looks like he’ll be working most of the week.  I know he’s going to be tired, especially since he’s cutting out carbs!

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining at all!  I’m very happy and greatfull that he’s getting this opportunity!  With his job, overtime doesn’t come often.  Usually it only happens if the other guy takes time off.  And in our case, the other guy is so new, that he has to save his vacation time for the Christmas/New Year’s break!

I’m VERY thankful that God is allowing Hubs to work some overtime.  He got a few hours on the last paycheck because he worked 12 hrs on Good Friday.

Here are a few more things that I’m thankful to overtime for:

• I’m thankful that we’ll be able to put some $$ back for our upcoming vacation.
• I’m thankful that we won’t have to scrimp in order for me to pay for the hair appt I made for the week before vacation. 
• I’m thankful that I’ll be able to get a pedicure (at least one) before vacation. 
• I’m thankful that we might have a bit of $$ left over for curricula for next year! 
• I’m thankful, that when Hubs went to put gas in his car today, that he was able to fill it up with out us sacrificing the grocery budget!
• I’m thankful that we were able to replace the broken dishwasher last week and that I only had to hand wash dishes for one week.
• I’m thankful for a hard working Hubs.
• I’m thankful that we will be able to get #3 a new pair of shoes.  The pair he has now was bought before Thanksgiving.
• I’m thankful that I was able to get some clothes yesterday.
• I’m thankful that our fridge and freezer are full.

…..And, since Hubs will be getting home soon, he’ll probably be thankful if I have some dinner ready for him, SO, I’m off to fix his dinner!

Question from Hubs April 17, 2007

I got a new dishwasher last Friday.  As I was loading it for the inaugural load, Hubs was helping, in his own little way.  He put some silverware pointing down.  I told him that I like them pointing up, so the water flows down toward the handle, and he switched them around.  As I continued to load the rest of the dishes, I came across some steak knives, and I put them pointed down.  Hubs saw this and asked why I could put silverware facing down and he couldn’t.  So I had to explain to a 34 year old MAN, that if we put sharp items pointing up, someone might cut themselves.

What a sheltered life this man has led.  And for the record, the last time Hubs loaded a dishwasher was after I delivered #3!  He even complained, way back then, that he had to run the DW twice in one day!!!

AND, I love my new DW!!  It’s stainless steel on the outside, couldn’t afford the ones with ss on the inside!  BUT it’s got an Eco wash and uses less water.  The Eco wash washes better than my old one when it was run on Pots/pans!  The little info book that came with it says to use 2t of detergent!  And yep, I’m measuring until I get a good feel for how much that is!  My dishes are coming out so nice!  OH, it even has a “Top Rack Only” feature, which uses even less water! 

How Many Times? April 17, 2007

How many times am I allowed to ‘START OVER’?  Yep, I’m starting over again.  I walked 30 mins yesterday and I did 30 mins this morning, FIRST THING!!  Well, I had to make Hubs breakfast first!!

This book I’m reading is very interesting.  Talking about how HFCS isn’t really food, so your brain doesn’t see it as food and even though you’ve just eaten, your brain doesn’t know it and wants you to keep eating!

I’ve got more floating around in my head, but it’s 7:15 and I’ve got to get #2 fed and off to school!!!

Women who are petty April 16, 2007

Palm Sunday- we had interest in going to a church she belongs to and I had asked her early in the week about what was going on for Palm Sunday so we could know ahead of time.  She says “I don’t know, but will call someone and find out”.  I say “That would be great.  Thanks so much!”  Does she call me back?  Not until 7:00 on Saturday night as we were walking out the door to go to another church.  And then has the nerve to tell me that she just realized there was going to be a play at church because her husband was in it and just told her…odd…because it was Friday night too, and saturday afternoon.  So….where did she think he was? 

Let me tell you about another time.  She supposedly “wanted” me to go on a field trip with her last week, but didn’t call and ask.  Instead, she let a mutual friend call me and invite me and then said “So&So wanted to know if you could go and you guys could carpool”….she only has access to one car sometimes. 

Today calls and asks me if I have a folding table she can use.  I say “sure, but it is a pain to open, but she is welcome to it”  Pretty much knowing that she will beat it up and treat it like crap because it is mine, but thinking it is only a table and I should be kind.  She then tells me that she can come over tomorrow night or friday night.  So I say, how about tomorrow.    She says “I will be at bible study on Wed night, why don’t you just bring it to me then”.  I say “I am sorry, I can’t.  I am still having back problems and just can’t carry it.  It is large and akward.”  She says “Oh ya, that’s right.  There is something wrong with your back.  That’s why you weren’t at Bunko.  Oh ya, you don’t get invited to Bunco.  I do!  What else was it that you couldn’t do? Oh, go on a field trip with us.  Well, since you can’t carry it, I will have to come over tomorrow night and get it myself.”  And all of this was said in such a shitty tone. 

Yes.  I have had a crappy afternoon and need to mellow out.  I know!  But….I just had to complain!

Things driving me crazy! April 16, 2007

Ok…we have these neighbors with a large number of kids.  They have some *close* to my kids ages and they like to play together.  They live just about 4 houses away and sort of around the corner.  They have a trampoline, a pool and now they have a sandbox.  I don’t mind my kids playing with their kids, but I don’t like them to play in the back yard- there is no parent watching, and I can’t hear them nor can they hear me when I call. 

I have attempted many times to make friends with the Mom so that it won’t seem odd when I am over there monitoring the kids playing- I don’t currently monitor over there and try to let the kids play over there for short periods of time.  The house backs up to an empty lot and then a busy road.  As for making friends with the Mom, I pretty much had her socializing and then it turned ugly.  I had gone over and asked her if she wanted to have a homemade frappacino and some banana cake with me one afternoon just for fun last summer.  She was extremely reluctant saying that she had “things” she should be doing and she just didn’t have time.  Well, I convinced her and in the middle of our taking it easy, her husband came home!  He didn’t even speak and then she went in and talked to him and came out and told me I would have to go.  He was not happy that she was taking it easy!

 Well, a week later I asked her and her family to come over to our house one evening, we were going to be celebrating a 1 yr anniversary living here and were having homemade waffle cones and ice cream.   She told me she would love to, but was sure that her husband would be busy and they couldn’t come.  So….we get ready to have them, I see her outside and I say “Come on over!”.  She tells me they are too busy.  He is home at after hearing this, has their entire family come outside, sit on their porch and do NOTHING.  They weren’t busy and he was trying to pull some sort of mental shit either on us or her showing that they could just sit and stare at us, they weren’t working- yet they couldn’t come over for ice cream either.  Don’t know what that was about, but she has not said but 2 sentences to me since then and when I do try to strike up any conversation- she tells me she is so busy and has things to do and can’t talk. 

So, that is their strangeness and why I am not comfortable with the kids being somewhere that I can’t hear nor see and the parents aren’t making an effort to show that they have a safe and loving home!

Now….back to what makes me crazy!  I want a sand box and have said so for over a year now.  We had just discussed it this last weekend and were thinking it was a way to have the kids play in our yard where we can see them and monitor and NOW they have one!  Which is going to turn into “I would rather play over there where more kids are”.  And….we have nothing to lure them over here!  I honestly don’t mind the kids playing together, I just think that they are too young to play totally unwatched.  They range from 2-7 and there are 6 including mine!  Too little!

Books for next year April 16, 2007

Ok, bear with me because I would like to add links and just don’t know how to do it. So….you will have to google everything to see it!

We are going with Math-U-See. We are using English for Life:The Madsen Method, and Konos, Volume 1, for the rest!

Should be exciting! I am having a hard time not breaking into it already! We have 6 weeks of school left though and I pretty much have them mapped out, so we won’t need to use the new stuff, I just want to!

New Book April 15, 2007

Hubs is finally on the healthy eating kick again!  THANKFULLY!!  I just can’t seem to do this healthy eating thing if he isn’t into it also.  He is going to do NO CARB.  He’s done it before and lost quite a bit, but then wasn’t able to loose anymore.  I’m not going to go NO carb like him.  I just have to have some.  I do know that I’ve been having WAY too many, so I will be cutting down.

I bought a book today.  You On A Diet  From what I understand it’ll teach me the how and what and why on foods and diets and exercise.  I guess I’ll have to read it to know for sure!

I’m supposed to have a buddy……will you be my buddy???

Did you get that Beck book?