Weght May 2, 2008

I am really needing a place to keep up with my weight loss. I like seeing the numbers go down on a weekly basis. I have a terrible memory, so I’m tired of trying to rely on that!

My weight this morning was 194.8. I know that is still a huge number. But I’m so excited. I can’t tell you how good it feels to get on the scales before I go to bed and see a number in the 100’s.  At the beginning of this journey, I couldn’t enjoy each pound lost.  I kept waiting to be happy until I lost more.  Now, I’m thankful for every pound.  I know I won’t go back over 200.  I just can’t do that again.  It’s so mentally  freeing  to be under 200.  I know there isn’t a big difference in 202 and 198 in my appearance, but in my state of mind it’s colossal!

At the beginning of May last year, I was 258.6.  I’ve lost 64LBS in a year!  I feel so much better, physically and emotionally.  Yes, I still put the fun in disfunctional, but I’m happier and less moody than I was.  I’m able to move so much easier now.

This whole journey has been a series of milestones.  Most of them have been set by the number on the scale.  I know I should be more concerned with my health in general, but at that starting weight, numbers on the scale are what you notice the most.  When I hit my 50lbs down goal, I decided it was time to do something for me.  That is when I got my iPod.  When I hit 60lbs down, I didn’t really get a material prize for myself.  The mental prize was better than anything material!  Now, I’m hitting a new milestone.  Clothes.  I went shopping and bought pants and shorts in the regular size section, not the plus size section.  Oh my goodness, I didn’t know if I’d be able to contain myself.  To be walking around in regular size clothing, it’s almost like it’s not real.  It’s hard to explain.  In February of 1995, I had lost 50lbs and hit 202.  That was the last time I had gotten that low, until now.  I honestly can’t remember when I was under 200, but I know it wasn’t long after Hubs and I got together that I went over 200.  We’ve been together for 20 years.

Mini Goal March 4, 2008

I want to reach my mini goal by Easter.  Last week I thought I only had 3 lbs to go to hit my new goal and I was wrong.  I had 6 lbs to go.  I’ve still got 6 lbs to go!  I didn’t lose any weight last week.  I did gain 2 lbs, but they are gone.  Last week DH worked one day and we lifted weights the other 4 days.  This week DH has off one day, my main focus this week will be cardio.  Yesterday I walked 65 min on the treadmill. 

When I did the National Body Challenge, one of the perks was an 8 week membership to PodFitness.  Most of that time, I didn’t have an MP3 player.  I did manage to get a bike workout and a treadmill workout.  I used the treadmill workout yesterday and I really like it.  The membership is pricey or I’d still be a member.  I like that they use my own songs.  I like that I was challenged(doesn’t take much).  I didn’t go as fast at one point, I’m just not a fast walker.(4.5 is a jog for me,I don’t know why I don’t walk fast, I don’t think I’m short..am I)  I did walk at 4.0, but when she said to go up to 4.2, I stayed at 4.0.  I was shocked that I walked at 4.0…..aren’t you?  I did all of the inclines.  I definitely got my heart rate up. 

I bought a new pair of jeans over the weekend.  They are a size smaller!  I had bought a pair of jeans back at the beginning of December but they are just too loose.  I hate pulling my pants up while I walk.  I’ve also got to go shopping for shorts.  I know we’ve got snow on the ground, but I also know that the weekend’s forecast is calling for 70’s by the weekend.  It will be shorts weather before we know it!

SNOW March 4, 2008

It snowed yesterday. In MARCH. For a while! Not just our usual handful of flakes, but real snow! We may have gotten around 3 INCHES! I’m not sure about that yet, I haven’t heard an official number. It sure was pretty! It sure was COLD! We were in the 70’s on Sunday!

Unfortunately, most of the snow fell after it got dark. #2 got to play a little in the snow while DH and I worked. #1 got out a little in it when he took the dog out to do his business(by the way, a 10 week old puppy doesn’t like to do his business in the cold or wet or snow!)

Before we went to bed, DH went outside to look around and took #3 with him. He was out there in his PJs playing in the snow. He even threw a snowball at DH! When he came inside he was barely able to talk, he was so excited!

We were surprised to see the snow staying on the ground and roads. We didn’t really think the ground was cold enough for the snow to stick. Thankfully the street and driveway were just wet when we woke up this morning. There is still snow on the grass and cars, but the roads are clear. I was afraid I was going it have to drive #2 to school in the JEEP! hahaha!

And I thought we had gone a whole winter with out any snow! At least we won’t have any snow days to make up! I love getting the snow days, I just hate making them up!

I Knew I Could February 24, 2008

I knew I could do it!  I finally hit 50 lbs!  When I went last Tuesday for my Dr. appt, I had officially hit 52 lbs DOWN! 

DH and I went shopping to celebrate the hitting milestone!  I’m now the proud owner of an iPod Touch!  I did tell him that I’d gladly take 50 squares of St. Augustine sod instead!  He didn’t like that idea, if I got sod, then he’d have to actually do something physical in the yard!  He hasn’t done anything physical in our yard in almost 4 years.(he cut a limb from a tree in the back yard to get more sunshine in his pool!) 

I think he figured if he bought the iPod it would be easier for him!  For the most part it is easier, but I found it $40 cheaper up the road from where I bought it.  So, tomorrow, we’ll either get $40 from the original store or return the Touch and go to the other store and buy their’s!!

Have a great week!

SSOOOO SSLLOOOOOWWW February 10, 2008

This weight surely isn’t coming off as fast as it came on!

9 Days ago I had ONE pound to go to hit a loss of 50.  Today, I’ve got .5 left!  I’ve gained and lost the same 2 lbs so many times, I should be at my goal by now!

I have my dr. appt on Tuesday, hopefully I’ll be at my 50lb goal by then.  Tomorrow at the gym, I’m only doing cardio.  DH is going and he always makes me lift weights, (which makes me wonder why I’m having trouble losing, but that’s another post)

You Can Do’it January 30, 2008

I keep hearing that actor in those Adam Sandler movies saying “you can do’it”.  I am so close to my 50LB mark, just ONE lb to go!  Until this morning the scales hadn’t budged since Saturday.  That was the day that I made banana nut bread.  I did make it mostly with whole wheat flour(I ran out and had to use 1/4 of white flour) and I added 4T of ground flax seed to it.   I am glad that I didn’t go overboard, I only had a slice a day(thick slice).  I didn’t gain any weight, but I didn’t lose any either.  I also didn’t do any exercising all weekend.

I have been spending a good amount of time at the gym.  DH was off the last 2 days and went to the gym w/me!  Monday, we did back and shoulders and yesterday we did legs.  I think that’s another reason the weight has slowed down.  I’m lifting weights again, which means less cardio on those days.  He’s at work today and tomorrow and I’ve got my cardio planned out.   I’ll spend 30 min on the elliptical, 20 min in the sauna and 30 min on the treadmill.  I’ve been reading that if you break up your work out with a 20 minute rest, you will get better results.  I also know ME, if I stop and go sit somewhere, I won’t get back to it.  The sauna works out great, I’m still at the gym and I haven’t cooled down, so I am able to just hop back into cardio.  I think the sauna is helping my complexion and the cold that I thought was trying to take over is gone!

I was pleased this morning to see 2lbs gone.  I was worried because we ate out last night for dinner.  I tried to do well, but the biscuits at the best little chicken place were so good that I had 2, but I didn’t put any honey on them!  When they brought out my half of a smoked chicken, I only ate the breast(DH had the fried chick).  I only had 1 spoonful of mashed ‘taters and I didn’t put any gravy on them.  The green beans seemed to be smothered in butter, so I didn’t have any of those.  AND, as much as I wanted to order banana pudding, I didn’t!

We ate dinner early ~ 4:45!  Then #2 had bball practice and I didn’t eat again the rest of the night!  DH had yogurt covered pretzels and I didn’t have any!  DH had almond joys and I didn’t have any!  It was weird, I didn’t want them so it wasn’t even hard to say NO!  I did give him a look and let him know that I worked too hard today to blow it on junk!  hehehe  (granted he’s lost 15lbs and I’ve lost 8 since the 7th~go figure!)

I weighed! January 25, 2008

I’m now down 47lbs!

I can see 50!  It’s just on the other side of the treadmill!

As soon as I see 50lbs down, I’ll only have 28lbs left to lose to hit my goal!  I’ve set a goal knowing that I’d re-evaluate once I hit it.  It’s been so long since I’ve been that low, heck-who am I kidding—-It’s been so long since I’ve been this low!  I think the last time I was this low was after I had #1—-12 years ago!  And even then, if I did see this weight, it wasn’t long.  At my 6 week check-up, I was put on that birth control shot and put 50lbs on in 6 months!  How’s that for over achieving?!

I’d like to have the 78lbs gone by May.  That was when I started my journey….this time around

I’m working out pretty regularly.  I’m at the gym on average 4 times a week, and I’m spending about an hour and a half while I’m there.  While I’m there, I’m taking 20 minutes for myself and sitting in the sauna with a magazine!  I’m also riding the recumbent bike and loving it!

Beginagain…again? January 17, 2008

So, it’s a new year!  I miss posting on here!  I really enjoy it.  I like using this as a sounding board!  It helps to get all of my thoughts out, as jumbled as they are.

I’ve got a few topics rambling around in my head.  I guess the main topic is weight.  Mine is starting to go down again.  Why is it so hard?  Do we want to start doing a “weighday” again?

I’ll spend about an hour at the gym this morning.  I’ll do 30 min on the treadmill, about 20 lifting weights, 20 on the elliptical and maybe 20 min in the sauna, depending on the time.  #3 has an appt this afternoon with a speech therapist, so I won’t be able to stay too long.

I’ve got to help #2 make his lunch.  He isn’t moving very fast this morning!  He’s trying to talk me into letting him buy his lunch today.  I hate letting him do that.  The lunch at our PS is a joke!  Just about everything is pre-packaged and frozen.  The ‘cooks’(term used lightly) don’t prepare anything.  They just open boxes and throw the food in a fryer or the oven.  There aren’t any choices.  1 heated up frozen entree, 1 canned side and a choice of juice cup or boxed milk.  YUCK.  I think he’d get a better lunch if I brought him SONIC!

HI YA! October 25, 2007

Can you believe how long it’s been since we’ve posted on here?  That must mean that we’re 2 busy HS moms! 

Now that we’ve got the perfect curriculum for #1, I’m able to breathe again!  It is 12:30 and he’s been finished with school for about 45 min!  I had him do some of tomorrow’s work today.  Hubs is off tomorrow and we’ll probably run errands most of the day.  I’m hoping to get the desktop back sometime this weekend.  After we get the ‘puter back, I’ll be asking for the impossible.  I desperately want the laptop and desktop networked to each other.  Of course Hubs says this can’t be done because one is XP and the other is Vista. 

I guess I should post an update to my marriage situations, considering the past few posts from me!  Since the Monday that I went to Hubs and told him that I FORGIVE him and told him that I AM PRAYING for him things have been so much smoother.  I know there are a few people out there praying for him as well.  Isn’t he power of prayer amazing?  He still has his moments, but he always has and I’m sure he always will.  Granted, he probably thinks I have my moments also ;) 

How has school been going for y’all?

God is Amazing :) September 13, 2007

I think the Son may be shining for me again!  Life hasn’t been a bed of roses lately.  I’ve tried to keep my focus.  Yes, I’ve lost my cool here and there.  I think I’ve kept my cool more than I’ve lost it, that’s a plus!

As you know, tomorrow is my last day at work.  The business is closing on Sat.  There is talk that a lady who used to teach up at work will want to hire me when her new place gets established.  However, that talk isn’t going to put gas in the tanks!  I’ve been working on not worrying about losing $300 a month.  I keep thinking of the verse that talks about worry.  About how if God takes care of the birds, why wouldn’t I think he’d take care of me also?  LUKE 12 : 22-32  I know that God knows what I need and will provide.  I do know the difference between needs and wants, although I like to think I need somethings that are really wants!  I also know that God has given me the ability to help myself.  Along with the above verse, I also think about a sermon that our preacher did.  There was a flood, a man wouldn’t leave his house because God was going to save him.  The story goes on, with plenty of opportunities for the man to make it to dry land; boats, helicopters, etc.  Every time an opportunity arose, the man would say the same thing.  “God will save me”  In the story, the man drowns to death.  When he gets to heaven he asks God why He didn’t save him.  God answers ~ “What do you think I was trying to do?  I spoke through your wife when she asked you to leave with her before the flood waters rose, I was the neighbor down the street who offered you a ride in the boat, I was the helicopter rescue worker who sent down a basket for you to climb in.”

Yep, I stay conflicted in my head most days!

SO, deep down, I feel that I am supposed to be at home with #1.  I don’t know what God has planned for our lives 3 years down the road.  I just know that I KNOW God wants me right here where I am.  I do know that God has placed the odd jobs that I’ve held lately in my path for certain reasons.  I am thankful for the extra income they have provided.  I don’t think it is a coincidence that they last just long enough or only take certain hours out of my day and still provide me with enough time to tend to the house and family.  I whole-heartedly believe that these opportunities have been the work of God.  Honestly, this job that I’m about to lose, the owner of the business hadn’t spoken with me in 2 months, then one day, a week after Hubs and I chose to HS #1 and needed to buy HS books, the phone rings and it’s the owner asking me if I would like a job ~ Who else could orchestrate that?

Even though I’ve been working on not worrying, I’m still human and the thought of losing $300 a month crosses my mind, more than a few times a day!  I think about birthdays coming up and Christmas and our anniversary.  I guess, life in general.

Here’s the Amazing God part:

Hubs called me at work today to let me know that one of the supervisors that works the night shift got fired.  Hubs will be taking turns with the other 2 supervisors on filling that shift until a new supervisor is hired and trained.  Hubs will be working overtime at least until the first of the year.  He’s got the seniority, so it’s up to him how much of the OT he gets.

Now, what do you think?  Coincidence?  I think NOT!